Saturday, October 21, 2017

The Essentials of Growing Humility

Attempting to grow amidst humiliation and shame, Humility will struggle to thrive.

Yet, without humility, our ability to share the fullness of our life out in the world is thwarted .  Humility is the ability to stand tall, not with pride (which is a mask for covering shame and humiliation), but with a willingness to be seen as who we truly are; with imperfections and the awareness we will always continue to become more of ourselves. 

In the garden of our soul, shame is a tough and bitter herb. Humiliation has thorns as sharp as those of the thistle.  Pride is like the rotten trunk of a tree, easily uprooted and blown over by the wind, crushing tender shoots under the weight of her fall.  

Self Reflection: How will I nourish and tend the increase of my humility through self-care and kindness toward myself?  

Friday, October 20, 2017

Stepping into the World As a Full, Feeling, Imperfect Human Being

These qualities are seeded in our hearts and our being.  They are already within us in the seedbed of our souls. A few tiny sprouts will support us stepping out into our world. ***

Letting Go
Stepping Forward
Stepping Back
Taking Hold
Honest Self-Presentation
Slowing Down
Speeding Up

Self-Reflection: Which of these qualities are familiar to me? Which are waiting to take root, to sprout?

 ***Over the course of this waxing moon, each of these qualities will be contemplated.  May they each grow and nourish us.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Our Journey to Share Truth:Begins

"The privilege of a lifetime is to become who you truly are."

This moon cycle leads us in the way to share Truth in the world. Our first call is to use the skills, gifts, experiences and dreams we carry within to share our truth. Our willingness to share our truth as best as we currently understand this Truth. That is all that is needed. That is enough.  More will be shared as is needed-we need only be open to receive. Our understanding of the Truth of our being grows toward fullness only when we become willing to share our truth as it is in the now.

Self Reflection: I claim and move in the fullness of who I am,with humility, so that I do not shame or humiliate others.

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Gifts of October's Closing Moon

We each have a web of life we have co-created with the Source of our being.
Our web of life holds our dreams.
As we Work with Truth in our life, our love, desire and our efforts manifest our dreams in our life.
As we Walk in Truth, we are taking steps to share our life with others.
Our willingness to Share Truth in our life is the next essential step on the path of our Life.

Self Reflection:  I carry in my being stardust from the origin of the universe--the original big bang. Can I begin to imagine My Truth as big as that? What an origin!
I am connected to all of creation.  This is the Truth I am willing to Share in my work and my walk as I live my life.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Waking our Creative Spirit

The spirit of the artist lives within us all.
We are all creators, whether we own this essential part of our being or not.
To see our work in life as a creative act is a choice, regardless of what that work is.
If we walk in our life with an intention to create more love, peace, prosperity, balance..
        we walk as embodied artists for the Creator.
This is the path to Work and Walk in/with/for Truth.

Self Reflection:  How well do I know the spirit of my inner artist.  How would she express herself if I let her work in my life, walk in my life?

Monday, October 16, 2017

Saying Yes to Creating Self

We are coming to the close the the Truth Cycle to Work and Walk in, with, for Truth.  In the final days of this cycle our unexpressed longings may feel more urgent.  Our inner artist/co-creator longs to be expressed in her fullness. Our longings are the seedbeds for creating ourselves.
Truth: you already have what you need to be who you are.  
It is there in the longing.
There is still time to say "Yes!" to growing to our full being.  
There is always time to say "Yes!"  
"Yes!" is the creative nudge.  
"Yes!" must be said everyday, even if some days it is just "yes!".

Self Reflection:  As a living breathing being I am saying "yes!" in some way to my inner-creative self every day. I am, whether I am conscious of my "yes" or not.  How am I saying "yes" to my inner creative self? How do I want to say "yes"?

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Guiding Words for Working with the Waning Moon

What we have to move us through the work for the waning moon:

Our Vision
Our Energy
Our Effort
Our Spirit

All must be in balance one with the other.
In this way, we Incarnate  to the fullness of who we are.

Vision, Energy, Effort and Spirit manifest in our Work in the world.
Vision, Energy, Effort and Spirit inform how we Walk in the world.
When each is in balance, our life can be balanced, regardless of the events of the world around us.

When Vision directs the show, looking to far to the future, we become dissociated from the 'now'.
With too little Vision, we forget our direction.
With too much Energy, we are manic and life is chaotic.
When depleted of Energy, we sink into hopelessness.
Exerting effort without regard for the capacity of body, mind or emotions, they become diseased.
Lethargy, the lack of intention for Effort, breeds entitlement and poverty of Spirit.
Spirit connected to Self and to Source, supports our life, our well-being.
Spirit, with no connection to Self and Source, distorts the Truth in our work and our walk.
Disconnected from Spirit, there is no life in our work and our walk.

Self Reflection: As this waning moon moves toward closure, I reflect on awareness of my vision, how I use my energy, my right use of effort, My connection to Spirit.

Saturday, October 14, 2017

Letting Go of the Need to 'Let Go'

From yesterday's blog post, a practice is suggested of putting whatever we need to let go of in a specially designated container (such as a 'god box') and then leaving it there:
"There is nothing more you need do, except to keep your ears, your eyes and your heart alert for the guidance and direction you will begin to see as you move through your days."   

 Don't focus on what you think you must do, Just pay attention with all your senses, and a way for letting go will be revealed. Paying attention is an act of preparation for the manifestation of our dreams.  Paying attention also creates openings in our psyche, our behavior and our willingness for Great Mystery to enter.  In this way, we begin to experience the gifts of being co-creator of our life.

Self Reflection: Am I able to, ready to, willing to experience the gifts I receive when I am co-creator and not controller of my life?

Friday, October 13, 2017

Working and Walking Truth in Present TIme

"A secure future depends on walking in balance every living moment".  Thirteen Original Clan Mothers  (Pg. 198)

Perhaps part of the problem is I have held on to and not shared what I have been given in wisdom and awareness in a path of healing (with others).  And so, there is no space for what I long for (abundance, relationship, health etc) in my life. What does all this 'holding on' or 'coming up short' represent in me?  What part of me am I holding on to that prevents my True Self, my authentic, real self from being present?  What of my True Self am I holding at bay, denying, hiding from myself and from others?

Self Reflection: To get where I am going, I must BE where I am.

Thursday, October 12, 2017

Practices for Learning to Let Go

When we have carried a belief, habit or fear around for a long enough time, it begins to feel as if it is part of who we are. It becomes a part of our identity.  Just the idea of letting go of something that has become our blanket of security, or our 'go to' comfort, increases our anxiety.  Anxiety further shrinks our ability to see the potential for our life.  For many people this becomes an ever deepening rut of  repeat limiting, self-destructive behaviors.

Here are two practices which can help us become willing, able and ready to let go of what keeps us from creating our dreams:

The first practice I call the 'god-box' practice. Write what it is you wish to release on a small piece of paper, fold it up so that the writing is folded inward.  An example:  "I ask for guidance and direction to let go of ___________________. "

If you have a personal altar you can place this request on your altar. I have a 'god-box' on my altar and use that to hold my requests and intentions. If you don't have an altar, to choose a small, special container to hold your requests and place it where you will see it regularly. There is nothing more you need do, except to keep your ears, your eyes and your heart alert for the guidance and direction you will begin to see as you move through your days.

This is not to say your letting go will be instantaneous or easy, though sometimes it is.  Often, our guidance comes in unexpected ways-someone shows up in our life who is able to guide us through an arduous letting go process.  Sometimes letting go comes in stages, by bits and pieces.  Sometimes, we find letting go just happens. Awareness and asking are the key ingredients to letting go over time. Letting go is an intentional request.  The willingness is ours to choose, the timing of when it actually happens, however, is not in our control.

The second practice for when you are not sure if you are yet willing or able to let go:
Write a prayer for the willingness to pray for the willingness to let go. An example:  "Creator, I pray for the willingness to become willing to ask for guidance and direction and inspiration to let go ________________.

Self Reflection: I read this prayer everyday, upon waking and before sleep.  Soon I find myself writing my request for guidance and direction.  Now, I am ready for the gifts of the 'god box'.

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

The Pain of Not Letting Go

The pain of not letting human beings we tend to respond to life by either holding on no matter the cost, or stopping just short of the goal. In the animal world, only domesticated animals mimic this behavior.  Creatures in the wild could not survive if they behaved this way.  We human beings may survive, but we certainly don't thrive, and the life we create by living this way is painful, for us and for those around us.

Spider, as a totem so obviously does not hold on! Think about spider spinning and weaving her web. From her being comes the fiber and material for creation of the web. From her essence comes the knowing of its' form, its' creation.

Self Reflection: What does the web of my life represent for me? What is the cost of my holding on? What is the cost of my stopping too soon?

Tuesday, October 10, 2017

Living in the Mysrtery of Our Own Web of Life

There are ways our own web of life is known to us and ways in which it is still a mystery.
What is asked of us as we move in the space that is ours-to care for, to steward, to enjoy, to create?

Carolyn's personal share:  When I sit to write these blog posts, I sit in stillness asking for guidance, "What is helpful for me to hear, know, write for this day?"  As these posts are written day after day, I am aware the guidance is always there, yet I am frequently not able to hear or see it clearly.  Mental chatter, the static of conflicting needs and wants from other areas of my life result in impatience. I often feel pressure to get into my day (or to go to bed), or to meet another's want or need.  For me, this is the 'poison' that creates the distorted web Sara wrote about in her post on the weaving of one's web.

A Truth I  know as I stay committed to this path of living and being and serving is this:
My willingness to continue to ask for guidance helps me come back to a centered place where I am better able to hear and see guidance.
My willingness to have gratitude and appreciation for all that is in and around my life, regardless of how it currently appears/feels to me, clears a way for creativity.
When I can let go of 'my way', my time frame, my preconceived ideas and notions and prejudices, words and creativity flow.
All this is what allows my inner-artist to connect with Great Mystery to co-create my life (and these posts).  It is truly a wonderful experience and way of being. Knowing this, I wonder why I still leave this space so often?

Self Reflection:  What more is needed for me to trust I AM a gifted artist co-creating my life?

Monday, October 9, 2017

Thinking About the Web of Great Mystery

Moses Shongo's 'Pathway of Peace' meditation invites us to place our being on a very specific path, and on specific stones on that path leading to the  summit of  Great Mystery.  The 'Web of Life' is Great Mystery's web, Creator's web, Creation's web.  Our personal webs are but one among many. Creation is a web of webs. Yes, we are all connected.  We are all interconnected on the bigger web of Creation.

Self-reflection: I am a human being. I have been placed on the infinite web of Creation.  I have a specific place here on this web. I arrived with a path for my unique 'being', with nearly infinite possibilities.  I choose the steps to take on my path.  As part of the greater Web of Life, I will get input along the way re 'my path, my web'.  How discerning am I as to the source of the input? What/who supports my being? What/who diminishes and harms my being?

Sunday, October 8, 2017

Gifts of the Cycles of Truth: The Pathway of Peace Meditation

This is a reading of the Pathway of Peace Meditation pages 95-97 in Honoring the Medicine by Kenneth Cohen

Pathway of Peace Meditation

Self Reflection:  Listen to the meditation, familiarizing yourself with the seven stepping stones and their gifts.  It is suggested you take 30 seconds to a minute (or more) at each of the steps to fully integrate the fullness of each stone along the path of the meditation.  This will require pausing the video and taking all the time you need/want before proceeding.  Alternately, over the course of a week, meditate with one of the pathway stones on each of the seven days.

Saturday, October 7, 2017

Choosing A Walking Companion to Walk Truth

"You'll never walk alone"   1945 Rodgers and Hammerstein song from the musical Carousel 

It is True, I never walk alone.  Yet, I am often unconscious of just who my walking companions are.
When I walk with
resentemt, the other companions at my side are inevitably, shame, blame, and expectation.  With this gang I can predict what my life is going to look like with pretty good accuracy-and it will be more of the same.  Like attracts like.
I don't  like walking around with resentment, shame, blame and expectation.

What if I made a different choice? What if I chose to walk with Truth?
While I am not sure what walking with Truth would look like,
I do know who would I choose to walk alongside me and Truth, at least for starters.
Today, I ask for wisdom, compassion and curiosity to walk with me and 'Truth'.
Tomorrow I can choose different companions as I continue my walk.  
Over time I will come to know Truth better. 

Self Reflection:  Who are my walking companions?  


Friday, October 6, 2017

Waning Moon for Walk and Work Truth: Grandmother Spider, Clan Mother Weaves the Web

A partial posting from Sara's public blog :

Because I am human, I am an imperfect lens through which the light of Creation shines.  My weavings are inevitably distortions of the indescribable beauty I feel inside.  To become enamored of them is to attach to the distortion.  To love without attachment is to honor the creative force embodied within them.  To let go is to acknowledge the abundance from which they sprang and from which sufficiently more will arise to take their place.

Spider shows me that much of this world can interfere with my weaving;  Substances, such as drugs and even caffeine, cause  orb spiders to create distorted and dysfunctional webs.   My addictions, lack of self-care, ego, and character defects distort what I intend to manifest in the world.  Several species of poisonous spiders, such as the brown recluse and black widow, weave "disorganized webs", as if the poison that is their survival mechanism is reflected in their self-created environment.
A spider's web is not only sticky, but electrically charged, making it an effective filter for whatever is in it's environment.  From that I learn I must be aware of the environment in which I choose to weave.  What am I attracting to my web?  What am I bringing to myself?

Spider teaches me that destruction and renewal are essential for continued evolution.  Some spiders, such as orb-weavers, construct a new web each day, systematically destroying and eating the old one.  Not discarded or dismissed, but integrated into the next cycle.  As I grow toward wholeness, my creations become purer and more clearly a reflection of what is at the core of my being.  I must be willing to create, destroy and re-create if I am to answer my heart's call.

Self Reflection: Where in my life do I need to destroy old patterns that I might create new ones?  Am I willing to do what is needed to answer my hearts call?  If not, am I willing to seek guidance and support so I can learn to express the beauty of what waits to be woven inside me? 

Thursday, October 5, 2017

Full Moon for Walk and Work Truth; Grandmother Spider, Clan Mother Weaves the Web

A partial posting from Sara's public blog :

We are inspired  this moon by "Weaves the Web", the prototypical mother of creative and destructive forces.  Spider medicine is strong in this season and moon cycle.

Weaves the Web and grandmother spider speak to me of manifesting the divine in my daily life.  Increasingly, my heart's desire is to simply be a daily, living expression of the Universal Love that I can sometimes touch in my meditations.  Today's lesson to me is about the importance of creating and then letting go of those creations.

Why, if I weave with the conscious intent of channeling the divine, should I not hold tightly, as sacred, to what I create?
Because I am human.

Because I am human, I am an imperfect lens through which the light of Creation shines.  My weavings are inevitably distortions of the indescribable beauty I feel inside.  To become enamored of them is to attach to the distortion.  To love without attachment is to honor the creative force embodied within them.  To let go is to acknowledge the abundance from which they sprang and from which sufficiently more will arise to take their place.

Self reflection:  How can I manifest 'divine intention' in my daily life?  Where could I practice letting go of 'my way' during the waning weeks of this moon cycle?

Wednesday, October 4, 2017

October's Moon Totem in Full Splendor


A glance through my picture window,
With a sudden catch-breath,
Only inches away, I spy
Industrious creatrix.
Her abdomen, a gold and black mandala,
Wavers in wind gusts.
Legs extending equidistant,
Effect a delicate balancing act
On her woven work.
Braided zigzag anchors
Webbed hemispheric artifice.
Moment to moment, this:
A mindful solitary sentry

October Totem by Karen Newmand

Self Reflection:  Little spider is a powerful totem. Am I noticing more spiders in my life?  Am I living spider's gifts?

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Resentment Prevention

It's hard to walk in truth in the world  with resentment as a body guard.

In my own life, I see how I have used my resentments as sentinels to protect my feelings, my ego and my needs.  Instead of developing clean and appropriate boundaries, I learned to carry around a psychic clip board reminding me of the hurtful  things people, places and things had and could inflict on me. Using this awareness helped me remain in an almost constant posture of defense, Not only is this stance terribly wearing on the physical body, it prevents an accurate assessment of our world and of ourselves.

Self Reflection: Am I willing to learn how to ask clearly for what I need or want, to state my preferences, to be able to accept disappointments, and make different (often better) responses/choices?

Monday, October 2, 2017

Serendipity and Synchronicity

The day after I dreamed of children jumping on my web, I visited our local arboretum with a friend and her daughter.  Lo and behold a giant spider web had been built in the children's garden! gleefully, my friend's daughter climbed aboard and began jumping on the rope web.  Universe has offered synchronicity for my dream. I take this serendipity seriously. Synchronicity is a call to pay attention.

Self Reflection: In the web of my life, what patterns of synchronicity are showing up? There is a pattern. I need only take the time and create a space for looking, sensing, seeing to notice.  What might the gift of this pattern be showing me, pointing toward?

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Dreaming the Web

What does it mean to have a dream where children are jumping on your web like a trampoline?
That was the dream that woke me up, and I couldn't get the image out of my head.

As it would happen, a friend of mine, an 'Irish elder' happened to call me later in the morning. I couldn't resist sharing my dream with her.  She is second generation in the US, but I still hear the Irish brogue of her ancestors in the wisdom coming through her:  Here is the essences of her counsel:
"Ahhh, well, you know, in the old ways, the spider is the totem for the weavers of wisdom. It sounds like your being asked to be a place for the children to come to learn wisdom and be nourished. Just now there's a dearth of nourishment on the planet for our children.  And a dearth of caring for your own inner-child as well.  And I don't mean you should be enabling her...and don' take yourself too seriously either. There's way too much of that."

I choose to take my dream seriously.  I hope I'm not taking myself too seriously. I'm glad to say my web in my dream seemed quite bouncy and resilient.

Self Reflection Prayer:  May the weaving of our lives be resilient, strong and flexible.  May they be places for sharing wisdom, nourishment and fun, for ourselves and for others,  most especially children.

Saturday, September 30, 2017

The Meaning of Walk Truth

October's Cycle of Truth is to Work and Walk Truth.  My relationship with Work Truth is in all the ways I express my creative pulse by and through Divine Direction.  Walk Truth is the process of expressing my work out in the world and to others.  I  Walk Truth when I walk with the understanding my work is 'More God than me'.  Walk Truth is meditation in action.
In Work Truth, I create with and through spirit. In Walk Truth, my walk in the world is a spiritual practice.  It is often as colorful and rowdy as it is soft and contemplative.

Self Reflection: How am I currently expressing my life's work our in the world and to others? Do I need support to express my life more truthfully?  If so, am I will to ask for this support? to receive it?

Friday, September 29, 2017

The Gifts of Moon's Waxing Phase

Begin again, a new moon, a new day,
Clean slate, if I choose to see it that way.
Try too hard and the receding tide will leave me dry upon the beach.
Gentle growing, layer by layer, I create.
I allow a vision to become clearer, fuller, more illuminated.
I allow it.
I don't force it.
My illumination comes slowly sliver added upon sliver
with each new day.
This way, I am not blinded by my own light.
It is more humble to acknowledge
I am as much light as the brightest star
Then it is to deny the light within.
This light I have yet to reveal, to myself, let alone to another.
Moon is patient and kind
She will repeat her lessons as often as needed
Cycle after cycle

There are enough days in the waxing phase
the expanding illumination phase
to embody a little more of my light
and integrate it in my being and doing.

I work with my Light and then,
at the Full Moon,
I will be more out and about in the world
with this newer Lighter me.
I will experience this newer Lighter me
for a couple of weeks
and I will then begin again.

But for now, I will just enjoy my current phase of enlightenment!

Self Reflection: How am I enjoying my current phase of enlightenment?

Thursday, September 28, 2017

The Meaning of Work Truth:

To Work Truth is the opposite of Workaholism.

I have come to understand that the meaning of  'Work Truth', as it is taught in the Seneca tradition, is not a reference to doing what earns us an income or a means to support ourselves. To 'Work Truth' is to use our knowledge, hearts, hands and gifts with integrity and as the best we can in any given moment. Work Truth refers to all the things we would consider as activities of daily living, as well as how we use our gifts and skills to nurture ourselves and others, and to bring ease and beauty to our life. Our ability to Work in Truth is not a static process--activity and rest, ease and intensity, and returning to balance--always the movement toward living in balance.

Begin to learn what it means to Work Truth by noticing how creatures in nature do their 'work', how nature herself 'works'.

Self reflection:  What small action can I take to increase my awareness of the natural world around me?

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

Necessary Actions for the Waxing Moon Cycle

The clan mother archetype for the October moon cycle is Weaves the Web.  Notice her name is in the active tense.  She is not called 'Weaved the Web'.  Life is not a 'once and done' process.  Like spider, we continually deconstruct and reconstruct parts of our lives. We are often called to begin again. Sometimes we must move our 'web'.  Usually, we just need to do a little de-cluttering or possession consciousness.

During the waxing moon phase, we are invited to clean up what get's in the way of  our ability to work and walk our vision for our life.  A cluttered mind impedes our ability to hear Guidance and Truth.  Cluttered relationships are prone to dishonesty and disconnection. Cluttered environments breed self-sabotage.

As we move through the waxing phase of the moon cycle and toward the full moon, it is important to give time each day for both decluttering our 'web' and for doing small actions and connections (with others and the world) to grow our vision.

Self reflection: What part of my 'web' needs decluttering? Is this an inner decluttering or decluttering in  my external world?  Or both?

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

Trust in Your Choices and Your Dreams

Trust in your choices and your dreams.
Can I trust my choices? 
How often I second guess my decisions!
I second guess myself even when I'm going for something I have dreamed of, longed for, worked for.

By the process of exploring and experiencing each cycle what is Truth in my life as it is laid out in the Cycles of Truth, I have come to know more what is trustworthy in my body's reaction to things.  I have come to recognize when my thinking and emotions are truthful and in integrity, and when I am out of alignment with my Truth. This has been a slow process, and my awareness of changes I have made, are more an after the fact  'aha', than pre-choice awareness.

This past week I made a choice to spend a good chunk of money on something which has the potential to support the dream I have for my work and life.  After I made my decision, I waited for buyer's remorse to set in.  It didn't.  I didn't wake up in the middle of the night with an "oh s--t, what have I done".  I didn't wake up the next morning with my stomach in knots.   48 hours later, I still had a subtle hum of excitement, aware of the work ahead and was looking forward to beginning.  No regrets, no second-guessing.  A year later, opportunity 'successfully' completed. The big ah-ha for me was the outcome was not what I had envisioned.  Rather than going where I thought I wanted to end up, I found what I was going for was not the direction I was being turned toward. 

So, what is different now?  What has changed in me? I realized that in the past my choices and decisions have usually been from my need to be safe and create security in my world.  Of course, this frequently didn't work out the way I planned...hence always the 'buyer's remorse' response.  This time I made a decision from the space of giving myself and my work what is needed to flourish and grow.  I am flourishing and growing, and parts of myself that no longer serve me or others are falling way. I have less resistance. I have more willingness to say 'yes' without needing to know the outcome.  I also have found more willingness to say 'no' without fear of missing out. This space feels SO different!  I am coming to trust my choices and trust (and honor) my dreams. I am also as ease with my dreams being fluid and changing, growing. 

Self Reflection:   Am I willing to seek the support and guidance I need to make choices and go for my dreams with 'no regrets'?

Monday, September 25, 2017

Connecting Our Hearts to Our Visions

Carolyn writes:
One summer, I had the privilege of spending a weekend with Bob and Lee Nitsch, the son and daughter-in-law of the late Grandmother Twylah Nitsch.  Twylah was the Seneca Elder who shared the Seneca teachings of Cycles of Truth, a foundational part of the Moon Circle Journal, with all who would listen.  Bob and Lee carry on her work, and came to Philadelphia to lead a weekend seminar for contemplating and experiencing the meaning of the Cycles of Truth in our life.  Participants were invited to take contemplation time outside in the gardens surrounding our meeting place.  During one walking meditation, I came across this placard peeking out from among the flowers:

When I uploaded the pictures off my I-phone, the photo I snapped of Jung's quote was the one that 'just happened' to land in the front of the album. Jung's quote is fitting for the waxing moon phase for October's call to walk and work with/in Truth. I think about my difficulties having 'clarity of vision' and I reflect on Sara's intuitive interconnection of visions, dreams, goals and desires on the Waxing Moon journal page. I ask myself, "where inside myself, do I need to look (or sense) more fully, deeply, thoroughly to be more fully awake to my work and to the way I walk in my life? Am I willing to look there?"

Self reflection: Are they places I need to look within myself to be more fully awake to my vision for my life? Am I willing to look?

Sunday, September 24, 2017

There Are Many Ways to Have a Vision for Your Life

Visions have always been difficult for me.
I sense an opening, rather than seeing a well laid out path;
a kaleidoscope of images, rather than a clear picture;
ways of feeling and being, rather than having and achieving.
Is this a tangible way of visioning?
Or, am I like a boat in the sea of possibility, without a rudder?

Carolyn writes:  I've always hated those vision exercises with instructions to write down clear visions for the future, or  business growth, or what my life will be like in 1, 5 10 years from now.  I rarely get 'clear' visions.  I get brief flashes of image and a lot of 'felt sense'/feelings that are more like a kaleidoscope of possibilities rather than a clearly defined path to the future. I realized today how much shame I have been carrying about not being able to create a clear vision. I was asked in an interview to share about my vision, embarrassment and shame were lumps in my throat as my mind flipped through my mental Rolodex  wanting to grasp something inspired, or at least acceptable.

But, the interviewer, in her wisdom, gave me a wonderful gift.  She gave me permission to have my vision my way, and she validated it, and most important, truly seemed to understand it.  Having a vision for how I want to feel and be in the future, rather than what I wanted to be doing and what my life looked like, isn't so odd after all.

Self Reflection: How do you create vision for your life, for living, working, walking your Truth?

Saturday, September 23, 2017

Stepping fully into the Journey on Our Web

What flows from me inevitably leads me to becoming more whole
              and complete in my life.  
What flows from me is not originated by me, but through me.  
I am not responsible or creating the idea, the inspiration. 
I am responsible for using all of my senses (including the sixth sense)
And allowing what comes to flow through me.
This I can allow, support, encourage.
This I can nourish in the womb of my being.  
I trust what comes through me will be known to me 
           at the right time, 
                        and the right place.  
This is the stance of faith.
Just like with spider, the fibers to spin her web flow from her when she is
           in the right time 
                        and the right place/space.

Self Reflection:  Read this contemplation aloud four times. Then, sit and listen, just for a few minutes, letting the specific truth of this message for YOU come into consciousness.  If mind wants to run away from what  is coming in, gently bring her back until you feel the resonance of the message settling in your heart. 

Note: Spider totem represents a feminine aspect of the creative source 

                 and is part of all of us, whether we are female or male.  

Friday, September 22, 2017

Visions and Dreams; How to Avoid a Nightmare

There is a ancient Japanese Proverb:
Vision without action is a daydream.
Action without vision is a nightmare.

Sara's words for the waxing phase of the October moon create a pattern for working and walking Truth in our life.

There is a sense and order to how those four words words are laid out on the pages.
Our dreams and our desires enrich one another.
Our desires and our visions inform one another.
Our visions and our goals instruct one another.
Our goal and our dreams energize one another.

The places they intersect reveal and are the template for our calling, for our becoming.
When we honor the interplay of our dreams, desires, visions and goals, we can be sure we will walk and work in Truth.

Self Reflection: If I am willing to take time to come to know my dreams, desires, visions and goals, they will support me in who I am called to BE in my life.  Will I embrace my dreams, my desires, my visions. my goals?

Thursday, September 21, 2017

Aligning your Dreams, Desires, Goals and Vision

Sara writes:  To be honest, when I sat down with the four circles of 'Dreams', 'Desires', 'Goals' and 'Vision' this morning, I wondered why on earth we had chosen four words that meant the same thing. Then I started writing:

  • Desires-what my heart is calling for, that for which I feel a lack or emptiness 
  • Dreams-what I would love to have in my life.  Again mostly what I don' have (yet)
  • Goals-what I hope to accomplish, in specifics
  • Vision-how I see myself manifesting in the world and how the Universe manifests around me
I remember a time, about 13-14 years ago when a similar exercise (in the middle of a corporate  retreat) nearly caused a complete emotional breakdown.  I was living my life trying to fulfill someone else's desires, reach goals that had been set by those who controlled my financial future, had room only for the dream of safety and didn't dare let myself look at a vision of how my life was manifesting.

When we are not in touch with our inner self, we lose the ability to weave a coherent web.  Those four apparently similar words end up disconnected when they do not spring from our own inner truth,  from our own core wisdom.  

Self Reflection: Are my Dreams, Desires, Goals and Vision in alignment?  Can they all be contained and supported by the web I am weaving with my choices and my life?

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

A dust-speck spider weaves perfect imperfection: October New Moon; Walk/Work Truth

Spider weaves
Is she Creator of her own web?
Or does Creator come through her?

I weave my web
Inspired strands,
Spun in the colors of my heart
Imperfect Truths
Here for the moment
They speak to me
(and perhaps to another?)

my Truth will be different
And I will weave a new web
Different, yet still Truth
For I am a dust-speck spider
Weaving in the vastness of the Universe
Infinite and infinitesimal
Channeling that which cannot be contained!

Self reflection: On this New Moon, how is Universe inspiring me to weave my life? 

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Closing Moon for September and the Cycle of Live Truth

We are in the closing moon for September.  In this day may we become aware of the small ways we have learned to use our senses to hear, see, sense, feel and taste the presence and power of the Creative Force of life within.  

We prepare to step consciously onto the Web of Life, to work with and to walk with Truth in our lives. 

Self Reflection: A Contemplative Prayer: "Bring me more into alignment with my own inner truth and enrich my capacity to Live Truth in my being, within myself and in the world.  I ask a vision for my life. I ask for a conscious dream to understand how to live the unique expression of Truth in my life walk, in my life work."

Monday, September 18, 2017

Live Truth and Abundance

All Truths are within myself.
I experience them day by day.
Each step is a discovery
of new Truth,
of more Truth,
of clearer Truth.

Here in this place within, which some might call the soul, I will find the key to abundance.  In all of my experiences, a positive abundance is available.  Accessing this abundance requires a shift in my perceptions .

No matter my feeling-being sick, excited, afraid, brave..., I can use what I am feeling to support my going within to say 'yes' to the needs of my body (and mind). This is a vital and necessary step to Live Truth in my life.  Am I willing to Live what I know is True to have abundant health?

Self-Reflection: What would I need to change in how I live?

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Live Truth is When We Experience the Extraordinary Gift of Being Human

These morning blog posts really are meant to be one minute meditations.  Hopefully sparks of illumination to shed light on the direction of the day.  BUT...
It is definitely worth taking extra time to read this post from Dr. Kelly Flannagan's Blog 'Untangled'

To Live Truth is my having the _________________to experience being human as an extraordinary gift.

What word fills in the blank...
....what IS my word?

To Live Truth is to experience being human as an extraordinary gift.
Life is a gift; not always a fun or easy gift and Truth is a gift we receive when we come to understand our life as a gift, an extraordinary, co-creative Gift.

Self-Reflection: What is 'my word' that will support me to experience life as an extraordinary gift?

Saturday, September 16, 2017

How Do We Know if We are Living Truth?

As we enter the final days of the waning moon, reflect on how the phrase 'Live Truth' shown up in your day to day life.

Remember this is a process.  It is unique for each of us. It will change as we change.  We will have moments where we lose connection with the power within us that brings us the peace, courage and wisdom to claim and manifest OUR awareness of Truth.

A Serenity Prayer:
I ask for the Grace of serenity to accept what I cannot change in my life.
I ask for the Grace of courage to change the things I can.
I ask for the Grace to use Wisdom to discern what is mine to accept, what is mine to change, and what is mine to let go, and to act with that Wisdom.

Carolyn writes:  At this point I still mostly know when I am NOT Living Truth.  But this, too is progress.  I am now so uncomfortable when I am in 'NOT Truth', that I am more and more willing to surrender to not knowing and...Truth arrives (sometimes after a bit of patience).

Self Reflection:  How have I experienced my process of  'Living Truth'? How do I experience living 'Not Truth'?

Friday, September 15, 2017

Inner Knowing Illuminates the Difference Between Wants and Needs

The waning moon teaching 'Live Truth' reveals that inner knowing illuminates the difference between wants and needs.  In living Truth in our life, we learn to discern ego from soul.

Egos are not capable of sorting out what are wants and what are needs.  Only the soul can do that.
The source of our deep inner knowing is our soul.  

Only the soul would know that what the little girl really needed was a pair of glitter-covered red mary janes.   It wasn't just a whim.  It was her symbol for courage so she could read her poem in front of class.  The ego would say she was showing off, or how much better it made her look than the other girls, or that it wasn't something her parents' could afford.  But the soul persisted.  Her soul wore those red shoes long after her physical feet had outgrown them. Years later, in a courtroom they were with her when she spoke clearly, wisely and forcefully on behalf of her client.  The soul knew she needed those red shoes. 
Sometimes what the soul knows surprises us.

The Grace of the childhood smorgasbord Sara wrote about in yesterday's blog is a smorgasbord where wants and needs are served together, each complimentary to the other.
Not either or, not excess, or gluttony, but generous portions, yet always the right size.  That is the way it is with Grace. That is the way we give meaning to Living Our Truth.

Self Reflection: How can I find this Grace again and feast at her smorgasbord more often.  

Thursday, September 14, 2017

Saying "YES!" to Life

Saying "yes" to life is the outcome of inner peace.
We get there through listening for guidance, consciously creating balance in our inner and outer lives and trusting in the outcome.
Saying "yes" to life is an earthly experience of heaven.

Sara writes:
As a young girl I often experienced what I now realize is an incredible gift of Grace:  Many, many mornings, I would wake up in a state of rapturous anticipation.  I had a natural ability to joyously welcome the experiences the day would bring.  I think now that the secret to that joy was that I 
looked forward not to some specific outcome or event, but just to LIFE happening.  Back then, I knew in the depths of my soul, that life was good.

Today, I am only rarely blessed with awareness that I stand before life's buffet table; abundance laid out before me in ways I cannot imagine, and which I did not create.  My spiritual practice directs me back to this state of welcoming acceptance.

 Self Reflection: May I live in a state of "YES!", welcoming the depth, breadth and variety of what life will bring me today.

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

To Have Inner Peace IS To Live Truth

When I have inner peace, I am the essence of Live Truth
When I am pushing to get something done--OUCH!
Miss-takes happen.
Words are care-less; or at least not care-full.

Inner peace comes,
One breath at a time, a conscious pause in thinking, doing.
I pause in my be-ing
And open my consciousness to Great Mystery's influence.

When I am under the influence of the Source
I AM the essence of Live Truth.
Then, I am able to live truth in my life.
From this place of inner peace, it happens automatically.

Self Reflection: Let me reflect on my time of greatest inner peace.  Reflecting, I am shown how this reflects to me my personal essence of Live Truth

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

On Finding Inner Peace

Inner peace is found inside the self
How does my body show that I have peace within me?  
Do I know how it feels to have peace inside my body?

I can't find inner peace from outside myself;
Not from others
Not from my environment.  
Neither is necessary for being in a state of peace.  

Even if others and my environment have peace, if I don't have a willingness for it,
even just a tiny seed of willingness,
I will not be able to manifest this inner peace.

Self Reflection: How does my body show me MY inner peace?  How will I honor this body wisdom?

Monday, September 11, 2017

What Live Truth Means to Each of Us in Our Lives is Different

Truth, Lived through me, will be uniquely my truth,
Different from everyone else,
Yet, each living ou rown path of Truth,
We create a path for Peace.

Carolyn writes: This little poem is one of the conclusions about the meaning of 'Live Truth' as it is in my life. I came to this awareness during the time I spent with Lee and Bob Nitsch.
I saw that each person has their own gifts and a unique vision for their life, different from all others. To Live Truth, for me, means to Embody Truth as I currently understand Truth, then to express this Truth in all my thoughts, words, deeds.

Self Reflection:  In this waning moon phase, I have the possibility--and the ability-- to Live Truth in my actions and interactions with all of life.  My commitment to daily contemplation and reflection (daily review) ensures Truth lives in and through me as fully as I am currently able to allow. Contemplation and Review are preparation for my next action or my next letting go.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Preparation for Action; Stillness invites Faith

Action requires Preparation
Faith requires stillness.
I prepare with faith
My Action and my Stillness are in balance.

What are the actions I want to take in this time of the waning moon?
What is the preparation do I need to take these actions?
Am I able to be still? In body? In Mind? In Spirit?

Ah, Faith!  
Do I have faith enough to give my time to prepare for my action?
Do I have the faith I need to take action, 
        without promises or guarantees
                of the outcome?

Self Reflection: Faith, which is manifested fidelity to Truth, insures my success, guides my actions.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Waning Moon: Live Truth and Balance

Balanced, Balancing, Balance  
This word choice for the Waning Moon.
What does this word, 'Balance' mean for me?

Balanced meals
Balanced use of time
Balanced relationships
Balanced exercise
Balanced work and play

Balancing Act
Balancing give and take

Balance in my walk
Balance in my talk
Balance in my thoughts
Balance in my prayers

Self Reflection: When I Live Truth in my life, I live in Balance.

Friday, September 8, 2017

Waning Moon for Live Truth: Alter Actions; Understand Feelings

When we practice a daily review of our life, we create a space for awareness, clarity, and ultimately, transformation to occur.  Understanding feelings and altering actions are the two 'qualities' and teachings for the season of autumn in the Medicine Wheel direction of the west.  Both allow us to Live Truth.
We take time with our changes, seeking first awareness and clarity. Subtle adjustments to our behaviors are often easier for ourselves and others to accept than rash action.

Self Reflection: I prepare to interact with the changes life presents by altering my actions and understanding my feelings.

Thursday, September 7, 2017

Contemplation as an Act of Reviewing and Releasing

We bring our experiences, our efforts and intentions from our day into a few moments of just sitting in silence and letting them pass through our mind and our feeling—a review of who, how and what we were in our day.  This act of quiet sitting at the end of the day is the way to release what is not working in our life. In contemplation, Creator becomes the listening partner and adviser in the beauty of the setting of the sun.  How different it is to release our difficulties and struggles, to let go of what is not working, to be consciously in communication with the source of our being, rather than to escape or numb out to our life.

We learn the Truth of our life through contemplation. Through contemplation we learn to release what no longer serves us, without escaping, without numbing out through our habits and addictions. Through contemplation, we are given the gift to live life with intention.

Self Reflection: Do I have a daily practice of reviewing and reflecting on my day?  If I do, how might I further strengthen my practice?  If I don't, am I willing to embrace this practice to support my life?

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

September Full Moon, Contemplating Twilight

All spiritual traditions, from all over the world, and throughout history, hold a time for sacred connection at close of day. In our modern, secular world, the end of day ceremony is likely to be ‘rush hour’ or ‘happy hour’.  
The most mystical and sacred times of day are in those moments when the sun sets and the sun rises.  These are two short periods of time in the twenty-four hours of each day where there seems to be a thinning of the veil between the material and the ethereal—our physical being and our spiritual being. 

What would happen if we consciously entered this the time between Evening and Morning? 
What is required?  
Merely begin a practice of contemplation.  
Merely!  This is such an act of conscious commitment.   
It is how we begin to express the Truth of our Self; how we Live Truth.

Self Reflection: My readiness and willingness to self-reflect leads me deeper into contemplation. I can rest in the natural growing of this practice, this gift. I can be grateful--and patient.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Meeting the Morning Star

The Full Moon approaches.  The morning star—the star-child who invites us to Live Truth more fully-- is highly visible in the early morning, predawn hours.  She is visible in the eastern horizon, about 2/3rd's of the way up and directly east at about 515 or 5:30 am CST.  She slowly moves to the south as the sun rises.  My invitation and challenge to take some time to go look for her, meet her and  seek her message she brings.

Self Reflection:  On this last night of Waxing Moon, set an intention to wake up early to see the pulsing, blinking celestial light, think about what would support you in welcoming your full Self into being?  What stops you from asking for and expecting to receive all you need to be who you were created to be?  When you look at this star, it can be a reminder that your essence, purpose and path is always held there, protected, waiting for your 'yes' and your willingness, Everyday when we wake, we receive a renewed version of ourselves and in the evening, we offer our life back, just as in Setting Sun Woman's story. 

Monday, September 4, 2017

Seeking Our Own Morning Star

Carolyn writes: The evening star is called Wata-jis in Jamie Sams’ story of Setting Sun Woman in her book 13 Original Clan Mothers.  This same star is present in the morning sky for six months of the year, and is brightly visible to us in these predawn hours of autumn. If my memory from previous years serves me correctly, those of us in on this continent should be able to see her at least through the end of the October moon cycle.  If you recall from the story of Setting Sun Woman, the evening star became present to Setting Sun Woman as an infant in a cradle-board, also with the fur of the white bear as her robe.  Setting Sun woman put this child on her back.

Metaphorically, the child is symbolic of our purpose and calling in this life.  This little one is also the connection we have to this purpose; a way to express Creator’s design/template for our unique  being.  Setting Sun Woman puts the child in the cradle board on her back, another metaphor for us: our willingness to carry and align the expression and development of our purpose and calling with Divine Will. We are willing to carry our calling and to pay attention to it, and let it direct the way we express it in our life.  In the story, Setting Sun Woman sends the child back to the stars.  As I think about this in terms of my own growing Spirit within, I think of metaphorically offering my life and my spirit back to Creator at the close of my day.

Self Reflection: Am I willing to cradle my life purpose and carry it always with me; nourishing her and seeking to know her better?

Sunday, September 3, 2017

Being Faithful to Truth Life to Truth

"The ultimate source of courage, of 'fidelity to truth,' is fidelity to the light that is in us which is from God. May you find again within yourself the deep life-giving silence which is genuine truth and the source of truth: for it is a fountain of life and a window into the abyss of eternity and God."  (Thomas Merton in correspondence to Boris Pasternak in collected letters, Courage for Truth, 1958)

Carolyn understanding: Fidelity to truth is my faithfulness to what I currently understand as Truth, for the more I am faithful to my current understand the more Truth seems to come to light.  This I have come to know, and I find the silence of twilight a nightly metaphor. It reminds me of the the recurring truth that going willingly into the depths of the dark abyss of night will ultimately lead me to the source and fountain of life. And this 'fountain of life' reveals herself-- as in the ever present, though not always visible, morning star.

Self reflection: I find myself in the deep life giving silence of the twilight time. Here I can be faithful to my commitment to Live Truth, as I currently understand Truth.

Saturday, September 2, 2017

Being Sick and Really Living Truth

What about those days when I feel sick and miserable?
The reality of what it means to Live in Truth sinks in.
What a challenge it can be to live with what is really happening in my life-
Accept it.
Listen for Wisdom about what to do, now, next.
Actually, do what I need to do to take care of my
Physical being,
Mental being,
Emotional being,
Spiritual being.

Carolyn writes:  I am still learning this lesson of truthfully caring for my life.  When my body is sick, exhausted, frightened, I try to suck it up and in live my image of what it means to be a women who 'Lives Truth'.
I try to over-ride my achy body, crusty eyes, stuffed-up nose, scratchy throat and carry-on.
I fight accepting what was happening in my body.
I fight listening to the inner wisdom saying, "Stop! Go to bed. Rest." Until Wisdom gets projected through other peoples' reaching out to care for me, then,  humbled, imperfect, fumbling, I will finally, give in to bed-rest.

Live Truth is a process, and a practice, and a humility.

Self Reflection:  I first express Live Truth through truthful caring of my own being.

Friday, September 1, 2017

The Union of Awareness and Gratitude

Awareness can be used as either a tool or a weapon. Awareness is a weapon when we bring our past and our fears into the present.  These two become like blinders, focusing our awareness on a very limited version of the present.  From this place we are likely to manipulate, control, strike out, or withold and withdraw.  We have to as we do not/can not see the whole picture. We are human beings and not likely to ever live entriely free from the influence of our past nor the pressure of our fears. The antidote for limited awareness is gratitude.  We Live Truth  when we continually invite a bigger, deeper and more expansive awareness into our present moment.  We are able to see the bigger picture --closer to Creator's view.  With this invitation comes snipets of gratitude.  Little snipets at first, but then this gratitude grows and eventually the blinders of fear and past are disolved away.  This is  awareness as a tool.  It allows us to see more, know more and 'trust the bigger picture'.

Self Reflection:  What is the quality of my awareness about my life? Am I aware of my blinders? Do I have a practice of writing gratitudes and appreciations?  If not what would I need to shift in order to beign to know them and write them down?

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Am I Willing to Have Awareness of the Effects of How I Live My Life?

It is by our daily living, more than by our great accomplishments and achievements that we Live Truth and have a real power to influence the course of human consciousness.   Our daily living, our thoughts, feelings, words and deeds create the template for living on this planet for the seven generations to come.   It is not a question of whether or not a template for the future will be created, the only question is what the template will be.

We each have a template for our own unique being.  The path of Live Truth is a path of increasing awareness of our unique template for this life:  What gifts we bring, what grace we offer, what beauty we are in this world.  We have choice to add honor, peace, ease and beauty to the template of future generations.  Or, we can lay down lines of hatred, prejudice, greed, ugliness and deprivation in the pattern being created for future generations.

Self-Reflection: Each day I add a piece of code for the future. As I come to the end of the day I have a chance to review what I have contributed and amend it if needed, before it causes harm to another or to myself.  Am I willing to use the mystical energy of twilight time to ensure there is harmony in my relationships, my home, my Self?


Wednesday, August 30, 2017

On Living Truth with Intention

I am intentional about my life with my thoughts and words in these two ways:
1) about what I want to create in my life, and
2) with awareness that what I think and say impacts the lives and well being of others.

From this place, I consider the needs of future generations:
1) I play my part in the evolution of human consciousness.
2) I stay aware of connection and unity.
3) I treat everything as sacred.
4) I am a conscious parent, mentor and role model.
5) I trust in the bigger picture.

Self Reflection: Am I living my life with intention?

Tuesday, August 29, 2017

The Pay-Off

The pay-off from living with Divine Will as the director of our life is having such a stream of power, support and direction that, through our mere willingness to stay connected to Divine Will, serenity, ease and wisdom are our constant (well at least always in arms reach) companions for our life.  

This intention for living brings us the most freedom and possibility to live the Truth of who we are, without fear (from the world and other people and from our own inner fear/power driven and distorted ego.  

Carolyn writes:  Living in alignment with Divine Will is a practice-and through practice I have made some progress in staying connected more and more of the time.  It is certainly not a once and done experience.  But once I had a revelation of what this kind of experience would feel like, I want more of it and more often. Turning a part of my life over to Divine Direction BEFORE I got to the crash and burn has ALWAYS had wondrous results; sometimes beyond my wildest dream results. The longing for living daily with this kind of connection has continued to urge me toward ever more turning over my willfulness and my resistance.  It is a sometimes gut-wrenching process, but it has always, always been worth it when I do. 

Living with Divine Will as a partner, with us as the junior member of the partnership, through a commitment to act by checking in with 'God' first, guarantees progress toward manifesting a positive and healing vision in the direction for our life. 

Self Reflection:  What is my personal partnership today?  Me, my ego and my will? My will and another's will? My will and Divine Will?  How does my pie-chart measure out? 

Monday, August 28, 2017

Sharing Our Will With The Divine

For most of us our first experience of turning our will over to the Divine is when we have run out of options.  How many times have the words "I give up!" or 'Help!" or "I can't do this anymore." or "F%*& this!" come out of our mouths. Those words are a first step toward sharing our Will with Divine.

Wouldn't it be nice if we didn't have habit of letting our life get to such edges of desperation before we become willing to change what we are doing, before we open the door for unseen options? Some of us are slow learners.  Some of us have grown up feeling we have to do it all our selves in order to deserve things getting better.

The practice of getting directions for living of our life from a source other than our habits, our egos, our emotions, or our minds, is just that...a practice.  It is a practice that is best done with at least one other person as witness and corroborator.  We share with one other person our intentions for the day, and we connect with them at the end of the day how we were able to hold and complete our intention, or how we were tripped up in our efforts.

Self Reflection:  What is the one area of my life I would be willing, maybe even LOVE to have a direction better than I where I am currently heading?  So far, what has kept me from giving my will over to Creator?

Sunday, August 27, 2017

The Only Time Free Will is Truly Free

Our Will is perhaps the biggest gift we are given as human beings.  When others are able to co-opt our Will, when we give them use of our gift--we become a sort of slave to their whim and worry, at the very least.  At the worst, however, because the Will is an instrument for our life force, by living according to other people's will, our life force is no longer available to us to live our life fully, with the health, vitality and creativity that is our birth right.  This shows up in our life in various forms of illness, depression an inability to trust or rely on our intuition etc.

Additionally, our ego distorted and malfunctioning ego takes over the use of the will in collusion.  This renders any sort of discipline, dependability and discernment pretty much impossible.

So what is the solution?  Imagine this, we, after a being is incarnated as body and soul , The Creator/Divine hands us a little package. "Here", Creator says, "here is the tuning fork for your life force. Use it well."  Poof.  We are born.  The exact things required to have our will be useful for us --discipline, discernment, and dependability -- are not available to us as newly born human beings.  We are born helpless in meeting our own needs. These things develop through right use of Will.  This is a paradox, an oxymoron! 

The only way to keep and use this gift for our growth and transformation is to hand it over to the One who gave us the gift in the first place.  We WILL find that the freest and most profound use of our will occurs only when we give it back to The Divine and run all of our life force back through the Original Source of all life.  We know these moments because we experience ease, support, discipline, clarity, hope, feelings of love and acceptance, and the awareness that all is fundamentally well. Probably all of us have had these moments.  The power and energy of these times can be so powerful we are overwhelmed and snatch back our will in an automatic reaction of fear for the unfamiliar.

Carolyn writes;  This is my experience of when things are going to well or are 'too good to be true':  I take back my Will and go back to doing things 'my way' or 'other's way'. The struggle of 'my way' and the painful restriction of being under other's control is more familiar.  I may not thrive in this space, but, so far,  I have survived. I also take back my will when I feel life is going too fast for my comfort zone.  I will find some way (crisis) to bring a halt to my progress so I can return to a more familiar, even if uncomfortable way of living.

Self Reflection:  What are the areas in my life where I am likely to give my will over to others?

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Life According to Other People's Will

We begin our reflection on Willingness and Will by looking at how we learned to adopt 'other people's will' as a strategy to live our life.  As infants and young children, we were dependent human beings, and we learned to follow the instruction of others to be safe and secure in our life.  Sometimes these 'instructions' were really demands, and not living according to the rules and dictates of our caregivers threatened our well-being.

For some of us, learning to pick up cues from others about their needs and wants, and about what of our behaviors were acceptable to others became a way of life; a pattern we have never outgrown. In fact we may have honed these skills into fine art.  This way of interpreting and responding is so second nature we may not be aware we are doing it.  

When we are in the grips of 'other people's will', we feel pushed around, helpless., with no or limited options, often out of control, fearful, and concerned about getting things right.  We also feel stuck,  dependent, confusion, and feelings of shame .  We are aligned with a need for approval and acceptance as a priority in our life.  This list, of course, is not nearly complete!   

Self Reflection:  What are times or areas of my life where I still experience some of the above mentioned states of being, emotions, feelings, thoughts and behaviors.  Are there some other ways not on this list I would add where I recognize Someone else has control in my life?  I can recognize this and know, by recognizing the patterns, I have begun to shift willingness to Live Truth has begun.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Waxing Moon: Contemplation and the Will

The first part of the moon cycle, the waxing moon is a more contemplative path/time.  Again, this does not mean there is no action, but rather the action, growth, shift, change, transformation, development, are happening from the inside out.  Often this internal process is not visible to others.  Sometimes, we are not even aware of it.   We go inside this seed of our being to see how, where and what is needed to nourish it to grow and be useful in the outer world. 

In the month of September, with the teaching and path to Live Truth, We ask for whatever we need to Live Truth as the Full path of our life: moment to moment in our day, and taking this commitment into our evening and sleeping/dreaming times and  beginning again every day.

To be willing is the first step in this path to Live Truth.  The suffix '-ing' implies action.  In this case, it implies an intention toward action.  '-ing' always seems to me to give me an out-I can still change my mind about doing whatever it is I am 'ing-ing' to do.

For example: I say I am willing to go on a food-detox program.  This doesn't mean I have begun the program.  It's more like a pre-commitment.  I may be willing, but I might never start the program.
This state of being willing is a critical state to experience on our path of personal and spiritual growth.  Consciously staying in a place of willingness, for as long as necessary, gives time and space for the seed of our purpose (our Life) to accept/receive the impulse to grow. We are willing, and sit with our willingness, and then we consciously choose to take action.

The next place to explore in the world of WILL is an understanding of the three kinds of will from which we live our life:  Our Will, Other people's Will and Divine Will (or God's Will/Creator's Will)

Self Reflection: What nourishment do I need to grow my life to Live Truth-Fully?

Thursday, August 24, 2017

I am doing home visits with my new Kinders this week.  They live close to the Earth, digging in the garden, observing birds at their feeders, devouring Ranger Rick and Nat Geo magazines, making habitats for their Lego foxes and deer.  I am devoted to upholding the relationship of these children to Mother Earth and Father Sky.  I bless them, and I ask the Creator and their guides to bless them. Amen. Aho.

Live Truth, Waxing Moon: How to Be the Essence of Our Truth

September Moon carries the auspicious energy of the clan mother Jamie Sams refers to as 'Keeper of Tomorrow’s Goals and Dreams' (pg. 185). This month revitalizes our commitment to live as fully in our life as we are currently able. This kind of re-commitment  seems necessary following the often busy and chaotic energies of the summer months.

The Path of Live Truth is a call to awareness on many levels:  Of our own physical, mental, emotional and spiritual self, as well as awareness of all that is going on around us. The close of the day has a vibrational frequency (a unique energetic sense) that is not felt at other times of the day. The awareness we give to this  'close of the day' energy frequency supports our ability to reconnect to to the earth, to our intuition, as well as to the ancient ways. It is only by connecting to the natural world that we are truly able to sustain our connection to a sustainable wisdom [Truth] (MacEowen pg.7).

Carolyn writes: From my own life experience, I find sustaining my connection with the Truth I am aware of is difficult. The teaching of this moon cycle gives us ways to sustain this connection: Keeping our vision and our goals in the forefront of our minds, our eyes to what is ahead and consciously dreaming our dreams—every day!

This energy of Live Truth calls us to connect with our discipline, our determination, and our dependability--which are strongly aligned with our will. In the next few posts for the waxing moon cycle we will explore the role of will in Living Truth.

Self Reflection: How am I keeping and honoring my goals and dreams for my life?

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Twilight Invites Us Into the Flow Between Active and Contemplative

Sitting, standing, or laying on  mother earth, I use my breathing to connect with her energy, continually shifting from active to contemplative. Connecting with the mother, I learn to shift my energy as well. Active energy may not be 'doing', but perhaps total presence.  Contemplative energy does not mean 'doing' does not happen.  On the contrary, learning to be in this breathing space between active and contemplative often means change happens in Big Ways!

Self Reflection:
Here is a wonderful meditation from  "Dancing Moons" by Nancy Wood (pg 59)
(It will take more than a minute)

Septembers's great path of the moon is awareness.**
"Lie down in a secret place with your head pointed toward the east and stay there until you learn something. 
Then move slowly to the south, face-down. Notice what is in font of your nose: leaves, pine needles, dirt, insects, pebbles. 
When you turn to the west, dig into the earth with your fingers. Smell the richness of history. Imagine what this spot was like ten thousand years ago. Who came this way before you? Do they speak to you? Watch the way shadows move. It's history stirring.
Now turn to the north and stay there until you an imagine every drop of rain, every flake of snow that has fallen there. Imagine the animals that have walked by; the snakes and insects and rodents who live nearby; the plants and trees that grow; the earthquakes and the floods, the blizzards and the heat. Imagine fire and drought. Think of how the earth endures.
Complete the circle with your body. Turn to the east and listen for the Voice That Awakens the Land. When you hear it and know what it means, turn over and look at the sky. Think of everything that has happened there. The birth and death of stars. The rising and setting of moon and sun. The birds that have flown by, the clouds that have formed in various shapes and sizes and colors. Consider the darkness beyond.All time, all place is present in these two circles, expanding from your body in both directions, above and below. 
These two circles finally join together in the sky. It's called the seam of life.
Just think: In these circles, you have created your own universe. That's what awareness is all about." "Dancing Moons" by Nancy Wood (pg 59)

**You will find a very similar description in the 13 Original Clan Mothers, where Jamie Sams writes of the Sacred Spiral of the medicine wheel (pages 194-195)

Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Serving Truth by Living Truth

Sara writes: AS I transitioned from the cycle of Serve Truth to that of Live Truth, this is my awareness:

To be one small part of humanity's evolution toward spiritual unity and wholeness will be my life's greatest accomplishment.  I am called to share, to serve.  I am willing, even eager, to let go of my ego in order to more fully and clearly incarnate my divine spark into the world.

In this cycle just passed, I have faced fears and self-imposed blocks surrounding embracing the calling I am feeling so strongly.  I am becoming more open to following that lead, without knowing (or controlling) the shape of my destiny.  I feel deeply how all that has come before has positioned me for where I am now.

Full of this feeling of immense destiny, I write my prayer to the Universe.  What comes from my pen is the Truth of Setting Sun Woman: "May I walk in awareness that it is by my daily living, as much (or more) as by great works that I fulfill my destiny and play my part".

Self Reflection: What is my 'one small part' of humanity's evolution toward unity and wholeness?